Saturday 5 March 2011

Thought Provoking Question Number One

I think every now and then when I don't have a specific topic in mind that I want to talk about, I'll ask myself (and whoever is reading) a thought provoking question.


What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?

Personally, I hope I wouldn't do that much differently. I try to stay as true to myself as possible and be brave enough to just be myself no matter what. However, being realistic, almost everybody changes even if it's just in small ways because of the fear of being judged, I am no exception.

I'm pretty honest about my opinions on different things even if my opinion differs from the majority. I actually like being different and I like being right even more (I almost always am). Although I must admit there are a couple of times (none in specific) when I haven't voiced my opinion as loudly as I should have. On these rare occasions it's usually because what I have to say will cause major disagreements and I can't be bothered with the stress of arguments. So perhaps if I knew I wouldn't be judged at all, I would make my opinion clear at all times without fear of consequences.

Another thing that I think would change for a lot of people is appearance. In terms of clothes, I pretty much wear what I want, sometimes I wear some weird stuff, clothes/accessories that may not be "cool", colours that don't match etc. but I as I said before, I like being different as long as I like it then I don't care. I like that I'm weird. In the past, I have got on public transport without any friends with me and I have had my face painted at the time and I don't care when people stare. I sometimes deliberately wear odd coloured shoes. I'm sure there are other people who are confident enough to dress how they want but not everybody is. Although I do generally wear what I want, I can't deny that the thought of what people will think has crossed through my mind before. And obviously on some occasions you may dress to impress someone so you've picked something to wear based on what you think the other person will like, however I'm thinking more of the overall wardrobe choices, as long as you're not dressing for other people all the time.

Next up to do with appearance is make-up! I wonder how many girls would wear less or no make-up if they knew they wouldn't be judged. I myself don't wear much make-up, partially because I don't have a clue how to put it on and it doesn't seem to look right on me anyway. I do wear eye-liner, eye shadow, sometimes mascara and every now and then some foundation but nothing heavy. Oh yeah and eye-brow pencil. I don't wear a lot and I don't wear it every day. On the days when I don't wear make-up I feel less confident in myself unless I'm in the house all day and not socialising. If I go to work without make-up on I have actually been known to apologise, how bad is that?! But it is a psychological battle I'm trying to fight - I think I'm winning :P I don't wear make-up everyday for 3 reasons: 1. I can't be bothered, 2. I like to let my skin breathe and 3. I deliberately don't because I don't want to become so reliant upon it that I have no confidence to leave the house without it.

I think I've went on long enough, those were just the first few things that popped into my head when asking myself that question.

Peace out homies :P

Tuesday 1 March 2011

Good Intentions

Earlier tonight, I had a talk with my dad. We were talking about a situation in my life that I'm going through right now. This particular situation involves me not making the right choice and doing something that could cause someone else a lot of hurt. It's something I've been meaning to correct for a while. When having our discussion he said that most people generally want to better themselves and do the right thing, become a better person. However in most cases, this is just something we think about.

We assume that by having these good intentions in our head that we are a good person. But good intentions really don't mean that much. Sure, it's better than having bad intentions but as the saying goes, "actions speak louder than words". These good intentions count for jack if you're not doing anything about them.

If I'm honest, I know that if you were to stack up all of my good intentions against the good intentions that I've actually put into action, one stack would be a lot higher than the other. I'm sick of putting things off and just intending to make the right choice next time. Becoming a better person isn't easy. Procrastination, however, is easy. Developing a character, a character that is good and moral is hard, and is something that you continuously have to work at. It's something I no longer "intend" to do, it's something that I am going to do.

Maybe this only makes sense to myself and that wouldn't surprise me but I'm sure there's someone out there who has felt similarly at some point in their lives.

I leave you with a quote...
"You cannot dream yourself into a character; you must hammer and forge yourself one." - James A. Froude (1818 - 1894)

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